Tuesday, September 1, 2009

First day back, no one skips a beat

stroll in with back pack ready and mentally set for a new year of school. its not hard to imagine the appearance...
large bright commons with coffee shops and tables that fill the room. students grouped together, computers open and ipods rolling. in a sea of people you wouldn't expect the feeling of being alone.... lonely. now i'm not saying that i'm depressed and lonely. but i am saying that it feels like i shouldn't be back in school yet, its a full year at my door step and i'm not ready to open the door yet. the feeling of being lonely is directly a result of everyone seeming so ready and excited for their classes and the year at hand. i'm lost in my emotions towards school and even more towards where i should take my life this year..... where i should try to grow and change the most.

the best i can do and the most i can hope for on this first day back is relatively simple. that i stay true to myself and never compromise myself and my reputation for the sake of something less. that i push myself to the fullest of my ability in my classes. and finally that i learn to take my life in the path that will best benefit me and God's plan/intentions for me. these are my hopes, these are my dreams, these are my prayers.

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