The love of a friend and our feelings of loss.... its a failure simple title to understand i believe. in our life we develop the feelings of love, compassion, care, etc. for our friends who we hold dear. now i don't really care what you say, i know we have all felt this positive feeling i have described. Just as we all have experienced the second feeling, the feeling of loss. now i didn't say we lost our friend, its the feeling of loss... the process of lost if you will. this is a scenario i'm not completely sure how to describe. the best i can say is that other circumstances, people, and problems will draw our friendships further apart. sometimes we can manage to pull our friendships/relationships through this time of grief, allowing us to grow more together. other times we realize our friendship wasn't as strong as we had hoped, splitting the two apart for a moment in time or forever.
i took a whole paragraph to explain something intended to only take a few sentences.
That is a quote i made up, and it is what sparked my thought process on this blog entry. the point is i have best friends (just as anyone would) and one specifically that i'm very close with. i love this person to death and fully realize that i'd die for them (and most of my good friends). but this feeling of loss comes from this best friend of mine. this idea that live is a challenge everyday, each day is a test, each day we must take as a blessing despite our hardships.
i guess the goal of me writing this is to better understand my current situation, writing allows me to become like a 3rd person; view my life from another persons eyes basically. i understand the importance of growing in friendships with others, but the fear of loss in my life is a great one.... its a fear i'm always conscious of.
anyways this was very random and confusing... but considering how messy my brain is right now, i'm okay with it
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