Three statements, three personal ways of life, three reasons.
as i look in my life ad into others its simple to see that there will always be a level judgement, opinion, rumors, etc. basically there will always be issues amongst friends and strangers that deals with one person believing something about the other. As a blunt example; on person being straight but his friend believing him to be gay, its a distant example but it is the point i'm stressing. My mind i personally believe to not be like most men i know. i believe everyones is vastly different, and mine happens to work in a way that has deep emotional thought always on the table. i am an expert with masking true thoughts and emotions, i am an expert liar. I've found that if i hide certain emotions will remain safe from otherwise inevitable pain. and through this life choice i have made, i have made the two decisions above; i choose not to believe and to be alone. i have chosen not to believe in the complete trust of others (there are SOME people i do confide in, but the number is smaller than it used to be). also i have chosen not to believe in the statements made by others in my life pertaining to me. not as a whole, but as a few small areas. enjoy life to the fullest most of the time, i love to the fullest at all times, and i am far more knowledgeable in life than people have come to realize. you see when you don't stress your knowledge and act like you have a lack of it, simple because than people don't care if you do poorly in class. they will only believe you to be a fool. if you live life even differently then they do they tend to consider that a very strange and more importantly wrong thing to do.
all this rambling leads to a very important realization to my life. I know who i am and what i am capable of. i know the greatness i will achieve in my life and in the Lord. I know that i will make the people around me proud to be called my friend, as i will be proud to stand upon their shoulders. because of all this i will shed the wait of others and their words that hinder me. i am not perfect and i am not finished learning/growing. but i am finished being labeled as "less-than" and finished being considered inept. for those who see my life as unorthodox i will no longer be hurt by your words of discouragement. instead i will welcome the criticism as a compliment, as knowledge of the difference in living i have taken on. how can we expect to reach the mountain top when there is a line of people all progressing the same way up the hill. i will forge my way to the top through the difference you call "me."
even though i've slowly found a way off my original topic i've found that another has come up from it. i want people to realize the importance to accept people and their alternative ways of living...... BUT!!! don't go taking my words to accept foolish actions of sin and false gods. i mean alternate ways of living; personalities, thought processes, etc.
My father forged his own path and now has people following his path. he casts a shadow that is tall, dark, and dreary. but as proof of my promise i say here. i will forge a path worth of what i call greatness and of God's plans for me. i will show him what he has raised and that i have more within me than realized by others. My grandma saw it, and i believe my dads acknowledges it.... despite his hidden words on the subject.
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